You may feel alone when you’re falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you’ve yet to meet
Someday you will be loved
Nearly every day, I read through the “Missed Connections” in the personals on craigslist, hoping someone is looking for me.
It just doesn’t seem conceivable to me that not a single person sees me and hopes for a conversation at the very least.
There’s a song that says “Love is watching someone die… So who’s gonna watch you die?”
So, I’m wondering… who’s going to watch me die?
Now wait a minute, before I start getting comments about how I have so much to live for. I’m not talking about dying now. What I mean is: who is going to be with me right up until the end? I’m probably too young to be worrying about all that, but how can I avoid it in a world that has, consciously or subsonciously instilled the thought that a woman is happy and satisfied when she’s in love and married, etc., etc? Besides, as much as I like a good adventure, as much as I like travelling, I’m still fairly domestic. So, given that, is it so odd that I want to find my one and only?
And, is it so wrong to want affection, attention, understanding…? Is it?
Maybe I’m living in a fairytale world.
Some day, my prince will come. And he will be tall, and strong, with dark hair and piercing blue eyes.
What is my fixation with blue eyes? I haven’t the slightest clue.
Speaking of eyes: I can’t figure out why it is that I can talk to a guy for hours and hours and comfortably look into his eyes, but when I’m speaking to another woman, I break my gaze after about three seconds. I wonder what this says about me.
Once again, another pensive, rambling post.
We now return to our regularly scheduled programming.
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I feel like I should say something useful and Interesting here, since I haven’t in so long.
But I won’t.
No, it is not odd to want to find your one and only. It is not wrong at all to want affection, attention, and understanding. As for your fixation with blue eyes I dont have the answer to that one lol. I used to sit and wonder if I would ever even get a bf when I was like 21. Now that I have been with this one for 7 years I am sitting here wondering is he truely the one that will be with me till the end? Why does he have to have such a dangerous job that makes me worried, why did we have kids, why does he have to be friends with so many women? Etc, etc, etc. Im actually glad we are not married although I would love to have the same last name as the rest of the family. I am the only non Guidry in the entire house it sucks lol. No matter the out come Anna you will always have more questions. I have friends that got married recently and they always have the same questions and phrases. I cant believe Im married, is this really what it is like? Nicole, its like we are still dateing but we live together and wear matching rings and nothing has changed about either of us. No matter what it is anyone searches for in their lives once they accomplish that feat they have new questions and new feats to accomplish. I would have never dreamed of having kids with him I was happy just being a stepmom but oops now we have 2 more. Which in turn has me asking 90 million questions and wondering what each child will be like in a few years or if Im ever going to get through potty training without losing it. Life is an adventure and there is always someone along for the ride be it a friend that visits for a few days a new love interest or just someone that decided to spend all but 5 minutes talking to you. I dont know thats just the way I see it. I will always have a question to ask and I will always be searching for something more till I find that one thing and then search for something new. I dont think anyone is ever truely satisfied but for a few moments in life. We are always on a quest or journey for more. Im sorry if I didnt really answer this is just my view point. I do think everyone finds the one they are supposed to be with even if they run into that person and just have a conversation and you dont even know that that is really the one some people end up marrying the one and others miss the one but I do think people always meet the one eventually its up to you to choose who you really want to be with. Ok Ill shut up now sorry you just got me really thinking about a lot and I just thought I would share.